Monday, December 27, 2010

I've Waited So Long...

Hi everyone, 

I'm here just to vent, I guess you could say. Venting not in a bad way, but a good one, so many things have happened to me for as long as I can remember, some things that where hard and some things that I never quite understood why they were happening to me. But lately in this past year those emotions have been coming back, slow by slow. Luckily I have friends by my side, and a family who supports me. Now, with 2011 just around the bend, it seems like things are beginning to take a turn for the better. I say that it "seems" like, because I just can't BEGIN to wrap my head around all the good things that are overflowing my life, after all the hardships and struggles I've been through. Its so unreal to me at this moment, as I'm typing this I feel so strange, almost numb. I'm in doubt yet so faithful about whats happening, and I think when I get on the plane tomorrow morning, that everything will come together in my head, and finally all the doubts will just slip away like they'd never existed in my mind. I'm flying away to things that will finally bring me some true happiness, and meeting myself at the end of the journey. I know this sounds strange, and staged in every single way possible, but these are my thoughts, and I need to let them out. I've never really known who the "real me" was, I felt trapped, sad or mad every minute of my life. I've never had a space for myself, or a time when my muscles weren't tense, I felt like I could never relax or be myself in these situations, like I was always putting on a mask, center stage. Only those moments, that were gone with blink of an eye, when I was around my true family, people who excepted and knew me for who I was and no one else, could I be myself. Now, though its taking long to sink in, I am finally free to let go, and live the rest of my life as the person I was meant to be. And that makes me happy. Finally.

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

Work In Progress of "Ivy" (A.K.A my first painting!)

I've finished more of Ivy. I've began the first few layers of the base color to her arms, also tweaked her face and chest area:

Close up of her face, just so you can see better. Her right eye is not finished yet, sorry! I'll hopefully be posting more progression shots soon, leading up to the much awaited finished piece! (at least I hope other people are as excited for it as I am, if your not I'd be awfully embarrassed!) Critiques excepted!

Sunday, September 26, 2010

Exploring the world of painting!

Hey everyone, 
I'm sorry for not posting in a while again, I know I tend to do that allot, but in my defense, things have been getting pretty hectic in my house, and I barely have time to breathe. But, what I have found time for was to talk about this, what I'm talking about today has been really important to me since I started working on it not to long ago. It's a painting for a really good friend who's helped me through allot, I feel like we connect with each other to the point that we basically read each other's minds. I know it sounds strange, but, this project is for her, and when its finished, I hope she likes it! How this started was a few weeks ago, when I was at my friend Skylar's  house, and I got a chance to meet one of the most talented painters known to man! His name is Dario. Dario told me I should try to paint, and for a while afterward I was a bit apprehensive to do so. He advised me to begin small and simple, for instance, a bowl of fruit, or simpler, an apple. Of course, knowing me, when the moment arises and I want to do something, I will do it no matter what someone tells me. So one day, after meeting up with my friend, I got the most powerful sense of inspiration I have ever felt. It overcome me so much that it caused me to do something absolutely unheard of. Yet somehow, it seems that doing things on impulse, isn't so bad if done in moderation. Sometimes the adrenaline of it all is just what you need to push you out of a funk. So, all of you are probably wondering now, what is this crazy thing I did? Well, I asked my mom shortly after I left my friend's house to pull into the mall parking lot so I could go to the craft store. She asked why but I refused to tell her, it was almost as if these crazy ideas I was having pulled me into a trance. Going into the craft store I hurried for the back, where the stored all their larger canvases on racks. I grabbed a canvas the with the size 30 x 40 (inches). This is a fairly large canvas (Leonardo Da Vinci's Mona Lisa is a size of 30 x 21 inches.) By then my mom thinks I've gone completely mad, and the fact that almost never lifted a paintbrush in my life most likely scared her more. Of course I insisted, and the canvas and supplies for my mystery project were bought. Now, I am working on this project, and am farther then my mom ever thought I would get. I never even thought I would've gotten this far. Half way through this painting and it has been going amazingly for me. It doesn't even seem like I am the one painting it, it feels as if someone else takes my brush to the canvas while I just sit and watch. The process has had it's ups and downs, don't get me wrong, but for the most part this could have gone much much worse. I could've painted horribly or worse yet, worn my canvas down to nothing and be left with a large hole. I am grateful that nothing of the sort happened so far, and I hope that my good luck with this very important project continues. For now, here is the work in progress of the painting, keep in mind I had no reference for this, just my sketch that can be seen clipped to the canvas in the photo:

Saturday, September 18, 2010


Before you assume anything, no I'm not abandoning my blog (Even if god knows I never touch this thing!) I'm sadly, leaving my beloved computer. Since he's been broken for a while, I decided to use my money to get a new one. This is my last blog entree using him before he gets sold off to the Mac store to get fixed and resold. For some reason I'm really sad about this, I love my computer but the new one is so tempting...I will even be able to use Windows applications without leaving my Macintosh side. That means I get the amazing drawing applications designed for Windows, without leaving the comfort of my Mac! Which is a nice plus that I don't have with this guy. But still, I seem to have problems with getting attached to inanimate objects allot, like old toys. In fact, I still have my favorite childhood toy, which my entire family is planning sneak attacks to get rid of, but I can't sleep without it! Is that sad?
Anyway, for the sake of keeping this short and sweet, I'm going to leave now. I know allot of my blogs are short, but I can never really bring myself to write a long one. I'm not sure why, even if I do feel like I owe my readers that much, seeing that I hardly update my blog. You know...I don't think I could make it as a daily blogger.

Bye guys.

Sunday, July 4, 2010

Line arts!

Well, I just stopped by to say I've been a busy bee, working on perfecting my line work (for cartoons, anime, etc.) I figured I'd show my improvements. All the before drawings were from this earlier this year. Tell me what you think, have I really improved?





Wednesday, June 2, 2010

Michael Jackson, THRILLER

I am a big, BIG Michael Jackson fan, I love his music, personality, style, and pretty much everything about him. He's creative and probably one of the best and biggest stars to grace the stage. His performer heart brimmed over with passion for his career, and most importantly his fans. That is not something you find in celebrities of his kind, so famous and popular. In short, I would like to present to you, my tribute, to the King of Pop....

 Rest In Peace....

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

Digital Art For Everyone!

For being so nice and patient, waiting for my next blog post! (50 years later...)

I know its not allot, but its all I have that I like, so....


Computer Problem! EEK!

My Finder crashed yesterday! I tried to download a friend's book she's been writing because she asked me to review it for her, but it seems like the file is corrupt! Its crashed my finder completely, it refuses to open or respond to Force Quit - Relaunch! I've tried pretty much everything, my Trash Bin refuses to open as well, I am unable to open and empty Trash or look at my Finder. I tried to make a new Account on my computer, but my Accounts pane in system preferences also will not open or respond. I am still able to use every other Application on my computer, except the ones I've mentioned. I have no idea what to do, someone help me, I really don't want to have to take my computer to the store itself to be fixed.

Thanks Guys, sorry for not posting in forever, I'll try to make it up somehow.

Tuesday, February 16, 2010


Guess what! My mom was really sweet and agreed to help me (allot) in paying for a Wacom Tablet! I'm so happy, I ordered it this afternoon on the Wacom website. Its the Bamboo Pen & Touch Tablet that comes with [Adobe] Photoshop Elements and Nik Color Effects PRO, painter's software! I've been getting really good with my digital art and my mom knows I have fun and love it, so she chipped in BIG TIME. I wasn't even close to getting one and she was such a big help, so thank you mom!
Its going to take a while to come (say, 2-3 weeks) but being patient for my mom is the least I could do after what she did for me. :) Besides, sometimes the things that are waited for are the best in life! I'll be putting up digital art soon!
Anyway this is all I have to say, I just felt like I needed an update here. :) Bye guys!

Monday, January 25, 2010


So, at school, my friend Hayley had asked me last week to draw one of her favorite actors (I forget his name.) But I did, and I brought it to school the next week to give it to her, and suddenly everyone requested something! Crazy! So now I have two requests to finish that I picked to do, in a week! Can I do it?? I hope I can, it wouldn't be fair that Hayley got hers done in the week and they don't. So, I'll try, wish me luck please! I'll definitely need it.
Now, I didn't say I liked the way Hayley's request turned out. I hated the way it did, actually. But she loved it, and so did half the class apparently! I don't get you people; At all! But, I'll post the drawing below and you be the judges, okie dokie? :)

so much better in real life...

-Bye guys! Thanks for reading!

Sunday, January 10, 2010

2010 resolution...

I know I am late on posting a new years resolution, BUT better now then never, right? So, my resolutions are:

1: Be a better person
2: Draw more
3: Blog more
4: Spend more time with my friends
5: Be a better friend/daughter/anything else I am to someone except for enemy

Mmm hmm, I am happy with my list of resolutions. What are yours? I'd love to know them!

Thanks for reading!